1/24/2010

Peace Paige


So the physical pain is mostly over from the fracture. I still have some discomfort if I move it the wrong way but I'm pretty much off all of the pain meds now. Now comes the part of my recovery which may be even more difficult for me I'm afraid. I have to keep myself from going into a major Depression from the boredom and inconvenience. I am highly susceptible to a depression this time of year even under normal conditions. The holidays are over and my craft show season is done so there is always a big letdown in January/February. Once Spring comes around I will get a pick up from the weather change and more light during the daytime.

With this situation taking me completely out of my routine for weeks of time if not months there is a big potential for a mental downturn. The only thing that I have going for me is the fact that I and my family are all on high alert for it. It is usually when I'm not expecting it and have my guard down that the worst depressions sneak up on me. In this case I'm watching for the signs and trying to stay positive as much as possible.

Mike and I both are great creatures of habit. This is one characteristic that most bonds us together. We hate change and we have our routines that we live by that helps keep us sane and balanced. The broken ankle has destroyed the routines completely. I have been sleeping on the couch every night since the fall. It is easier for me to get to the bathroom and I can slide on and off my rolling chair to get where I need to go in the house. Mike has been wanting me to use the walker more because it will help me get back more of my normal life. I got myself into bed yesterday which was a major accomplishment. I actually got emotional from the normalcy of laying in my own bed. The smells and the feeling of laying there was so sweet. It really is the little things that you miss when you can't get to them.

One of the ladies from the office came by on Friday to bring some cards and gifts and it was so nice to sit and gossip with her about the office for a few minutes. After I had told her all my stories about the fall/surgery she said, "I'm sure you don't want to hear what we talked about at the staff meeting this morning." I was like "no, please tell me." It was nice to be thinking about something from my normal life and not about my problems for a change.

I go in to see the surgeon tomorrow afternoon. He will remove the stitches and put on whatever permanent cast I will need. I'm hoping for an air cast since those can be removed and cleaned. I'm hoping that I will feel more confident and secure once I have a solid cast on my whole foot. I'd like to be able to go out to eat this week and we are going to figure out a way to get me back to work. I'm going to take this week off as there is nothing to rush back to right now. The semester started last week so the busy time is over. I need to work on getting myself out of the house, down the stairs, and into my car by myself. If this isn't going to be possible than I need to get my schedule worked out so that I can get rides from other people in the office from my area.

I have terrible balance and with the extra weight I'm carrying right now there is no way I will be able to use crutches to maneuver the steps. We rented a walker which I need to practice with and we also have the wheelchair that I can use once I get to the office. It is going to be difficult however you look at it. I really hope that my ankle is healing well and that I will be able to put weight on it in 3 or 4 weeks like he originally said would be possible if the surgery went well.

The pictures at the top are from a barn on the farm. My mom originally spray painted "congrats Angie, Sr. 89" on the barn when she graduated High School. She put "peace Paige, Sr. 91" when I graduated since I was such a flower child at the time, imagine that. There are pictures and dates for each of my other siblings as well. They are fading fast so I took a picture of them a few months ago when I was home.

7 comments:

Anna said...

Hang in there! Keep as busy as you are able and spend time with family and friends. Boredom worsens depression, so find new things to do along with your favorites! Be well soon!

Meekiyu said...

Exactly what Anna said! Hang in there! Don't get yourself in a runt and try to surround yourself with positivity and creativity! =D

selahestelle said...

Ugh! I knew I would miss important things by not checking blogs for so long! So sorry to hear about your fall and injury! I broke my arm a couple of years ago, depression is a slippery slope when you're incapacitated! Stay as busy as you can manage, but don't compromise your healing! Sending healing, positive thoughts from Texas!

Theresa said...

Paige, all I can say is keep your chin up! It's best to just try to do as much as you can to keep you from getting bored but not enough to set you back in your recovery. No matter what, we are all wishing you well.

Sinclair said...

Glad the pain is reduced. Stay positive, and keep yourself mentally busy, if nothing else. Should help keep the depression meanies at bay to plan future craft events, patterns, etc...

Lin said...

Well, it sounds like you need that new cast and then you can start to figure out how to get around again. Hopefully that will get your mood in a better place. C'mon Spring!

Les Bijoux Créa-Lune said...

Stay busy, heal well and I wish you the best!

 

(c) Lenox Knits, 2009|Created by NSD